“The Mask of Your Smile”

I was wrong
not to listen to my intuition
when I was with you.

I wanted to trust you.
I wanted a future for us,
a future with you.

But you hid behind a mask,
and your smile,
your affection,
were never truly mine.

When I thought I had you,
when I believed your heart
had given itself to me,
I was deceiving myself,
and I was disappointed.

You waited so long
to reveal your true self to me.
Your heart was never surrendered.

I was patient,
hoping you would change,
hoping the person
I thought you were
was not truly you.

But when I finally discovered
who you were,
I had already surrendered
my passion,
my emotions,
my vulnerability to you.

You were never walking
this journey with me.
I was by myself,
all alone,
lost in a love
that was never mine,
lost in emotions
that were never exchanged,
lost in a future
that will never be.